I long for the sweet child I was before I began this. I am now somewhat jaded and cynical. Though I realize it’s impossible to totally undo the impacts of this industry (like I have clearly had to build thicker skin to promote online and stuff like that), I still want to be lovely at my heart. Though I’m so tired of a lot of the crap, I feel like I’m a bitch all the time, and I want not to be. For my family, friends, and myself, as well as for business, it is detrimental. It literally breaks my heart when the people in my life say things like “you didn’t use to be like this” or “I miss how you used to be.” They know the surroundings I’m in, but as you all know, you have no idea how it would affect you unless you are surrounded by it and really experiencing it. Nobody else will grasp.
I’m not sure whether anyone has any like, positive affirmation videos they listen to aid with this kind of thing or recommendations for podcasts. I’m at a loss for where to start. Thank you 
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Seeing this as a job and leaving work at work is crucial, in my opinion; you should not bring this into your personal life.
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I find it simple to leave my job, but for some I can see a link to the subs and to the harsh things that they say or that anyone on the interwebs says. My perspective is transactional; hence, it has made me somewhat colder, but life outside OF is unique and personal. Therapy, small rewards (treat yourself), vacations, and being able to talk with someone who is an OF model all assist.
Although I’m new to OF, I experienced a similar situation during my nearly year-long tenure as a bikini barista. I meditate daily and find it beneficial. After asking yourself who you are outside of your work, take a moment to contemplate or write in a diary in silence. We are whole, multifaceted individuals with so much more to offer the world than numbers or appearances, despite what this work may lead us to believe.
Do you attend counseling sessions? It is quite beneficial for this kind of issue.